What are you afraid of?

Good morning!
I hope everyone has had a wonderful Thanksgiving weekend with family, friends and loved ones. I must say it was a much needed break. It was a time where I could reflect and spend time thinking about what it is I want to do next. Funny, I usually know exactly what I want to do next and there is always a long list of duties, things to accomplish and things to experience.

Lately, my spirit has been needing to rest a little or as my mother would say, Peace be still." I am after all a busybody and it is difficult to not have so many irons in the fire. But I'm learning to pull back and only commit to what I really feel I can commit to and what I want to be involved in. I'm learning that declining does not mean you will not have opportunities down the line or that you are being less of a friend or that they will not like you. Then again, maybe they will not like you and if it is because you are managing your time and taking care of yourself, then making yourself available would not have made a difference anyhow. Because as long as they are getting from you what they need they could care less about you.

Sorry, I think I'm getting a little off track here. My intention was to write about those feelings you get when you have a great vision for yourself, a vision of something or an opportunity is presented to you that you know you could handle but you are afraid you will fail. How many times have you failed before you have even had a chance to get started? Sometimes God calls you for greatness and you just have to put aside your fears and let the world see His awesomeness coming forth through you. Yes, I know I am the only one in my way of getting to where I want to be.

Last week after talking to my sisters about why I was so afraid to advertise my business, they laughed asking why I would be afraid. It was at that very moment that I realized that I was afraid that someone may actually call me and that I may actually have to do work and that I may actually do an awesome job and others will hear about my work and want to work with me as well. It is ridiculously funny I know, but it is the truth. I thought to myself that I am surely not the only one experiencing this fear. So I thought I'd share my thoughts with you about it and maybe you could share your thoughts with me. Have you had moments where you had to overcome your fear and get out of your own way? Were you able to do so and what would have been lost if you did not? Or maybe you still haven't...what are you losing out on accomplishing.

As always, I hope this message finds you in good health and high spirits.
Peace, Detroit Luv & Soooooul!
Daniella

Originally written August 28, 2009

Good morning!

The rain is falling this morning and they are playing Michael Jackson like crazy on the radio so I couldn’t be happier for a Friday! Yes, if you can imagine, I have a huge smile on my face! J

So I was thinking maybe a week ago about some of my prayers over the years (I know only 33, but hey…it seems like a lot to me at least) and how God has answered them. Some have been answered in ways I did not imagine and some have been answered in ways maybe I did not want them to be. For example, I remember talking to God about the fact that there were only two of us, my sister and I if something happened to my parents. This prayer was not really a prayer asking for some help but just thoughts sent to him in my conversation with him. Most of you know I my youngest sister Janay was born the year following the passing of my grandfather. Other examples include listening to my friends singing in middle school and wishing I could be blessed with a voice as wonderful as theirs. While I won’t claim to be a song bird I have discovered my voice and have tried to uphold my end of that prayer by singing his praises which I did at New West Side, Dexter and hopefully at Triumph. So I’ve given two examples of prayers He has answered and how they’ve played out which isn’t a lot compared to how often we talk. But the point of my email was to share the prayer I’ve prayed for at least 10 years and how I now realize that it is being answered and playing out in my life.

I’ve been asking for wisdom. Wisdom to make better choices and decisions. Wisdom to know when something is not mean for me. Wisdom to help others who come to me for advice. Wisdom to just know better and do better. Well guess what I discovered last week? That you don’t get wisdom from just reading books or listening to your elders. You have to go through things, you have to have something to relate to when people talk to you about things going on in their life. Wow. That may have seemed obvious to others but not so much to me. Which is probably why I had been praying a prayer for wisdom because I knew there was so much more to life that I had no idea about. Well, I will leave you with this note without going into too much detail about what I’ve been going through…God hears all of your prayers and doesn’t take any of them lightly. You may whisper something from your heart to His ears and leave it with him never giving it another thought. But He is working on your prayer and will deliver it on time.

Peace, Detroit Luv & Soooooul!